FEAR

The teacher called me in saying...Neeti come in..She announced to the class " you have a new classmate joining in your class today " ..." her name is Neeti kumar and she is a very good artist"...My teacher said to me " i hope you have a good day neeti"......she made me sit beside Divya .... and divya happily smiled and said hie....and the english class started....after the class ended the bell rang and the teacher left....other girls and guyz came around to meet me....to ask where i was from...why did i join this school ( any and every school is bad whn your a kid all thanks to homeworks)...and all gave their names and she could hardly remeber any...and then the math lecture had started and the math mam already knew who i ws all thanks to the staff room gossip which teachers have abt students i dint have to be introduced.....it went on all fine...and then it was the short break period in which all of who got their mini tiffins came around and started sharing...it was surely a warm welcome by her classmates...she dint have to worry much abt how her classmates would talk to her / would any one make frendzwid her or nt...but it was not that way....they were all so good...so easy to make frendz with...fun and loving...

the day passed by and the whole class was friend of neeti ....on the first day itself....while getting back home....(home which was just one km away from school and she had 2 walk back) .....she had her classmate...ujwal accompany her....and they walked back home togther..

The stupid blogger.com does not save my blog and the whole post goes OFF....eeks..only the part written above was left over ...Gawd writing the whole post with the same kinda feel can be so impossible..i cant do it...

i dot feeli like writing the hwole post again...but i wanted you guyz to read it...so iam writing it again...

Ujwal ..and neeti became great frendz..neeti passed all through divya's help in science and maths in her 10nth..and ujwal had alwayz been a good student...he took up science and neeti took up arts..but they still remained frndz...she continued doing her study in arts where as ujwal (pet name Babooo)joined...engineering...but still they remained good frendz..they grew up met up evne after having busy schedules thanks to their varied study types...and they both started having new set of frendz..they spoke abt relationships...and brk ups....and grew as closest of frendz togther....Neeti had started to have more than a frend type of a feeling for ujwal but neve tld him coz she had a fear of he not liking her dat way and loosing him....she tought he loved her as a frend....

Neeti had started to look out for job and she got one and ujwal was still in his final year of engineering...sitting for his campus placements..one of the big firms was comming over to his college and both neeti and ujwal wanted ujwalto get into it....so neeti was excited for him..

after his rounds of interview in the evening he called up neeti..

saying can we meet up...neeti asked did u get selected...he said again can we meet up in his worried tone... neeti got worried thinking ujwal dint ge selected and he might hav gone into a state of depression for sometime..

he said nutty (neeti's pet name) meet me at the coffe shop near ur place in half an hour..neeti said ok..and also said iam broke...you pay for the hot choclatee today...

baoboo : sure neeti.. catch u in half n hour there..

IN the coffee shop..

Neeti.. : intensly looking at baboo and telling him its ok if u dint get thru..there are better places you can try for...anywayz it was a stupid company...they hav no sense of hiring ppl...(in short trying to console him without knowing whether he has got thru or no)

Ujwal. : Nutty for once dont talk and just listen to me..

Nutty : okay baboo..tell me...but dont be upset ..

Ujwal : promise you dont utter a word whn iam talking from now... Neeti wondering whats going on..

Neeti. : just say it fast i cant keep mum for long...

Ujwal : i got thru the company and they want me to join i 2 weeks time

Neeti : what a good surprise.. yippppeee. iiam excited to see u go to work...everyday and get paid and get so many treats frm now on... :)

ujwal : jsut keep quiet and listen to me... But i will have to shift to bombay to join them....

Neeti : what rubbish u mean ur leaving to bombay in 2 weeks ( upset)

Ujwal : i had no other choice you know how ive been wanting to get into this company isnt it

Neeti : oh gawd...one good news coming along with a bad one is so annoying..

Ujwal.. nutty i will just be a call away from you...we are frendz forever okay...

neeti.. : iam scared...youll be gone..u will have a new set of frendz...youll forget everthing here..

ujwal...why would. i ..

Neeti : (to cheer ujwal up and to not show how upset she was on him leaving coz she was so addicted to him and was going to miss him terribly)so ...your going to bombay soon...whn should we start shopping for you then...iam excited for you...yiipppeyy..

ujwal...: its goin tto be a 3 month training period and then i go on board...

neeti : sipping her hot chocolate...thats nice to know...

Ujwal... : you dont have to hide on being upset with me...cozi am leaving

Neeti : i cant help it...so its better i say nothing ..(with tears in her eyes)..

Ujwal moving by her side and telling her that...Iam gonna miss you terribly...and iam your best frend and i will alwayz be even if i talk about so many women around me...

Neeti...Iam gonna miss you....

SHe hated the fear of loosing baboo....days were passing by and it was almost 2 weeks...all the gift giving and hugging and all happened but neeti could nto share her feelings for ujwal and tell him how much she loved him...and adored him more than a frend...he was leaving and as soon as ujwal got inside the departure terminal....she called him up...saying " i missing you already "....ill miss to see you around..

Ujwal : I hope you get transfered to bombay

Neeti : i hope you get transfered back here..

ujwall.. : iam gonna miss you nutty

Nutty : iam gonna miss you too babooo..

THis post is being written the second time cozi lost out on the one i had written the first time...

so annoying...i jsut wrote it coz i was wndering on how each one of us go through this feeling of the fear of loosing someone...every person has someone or the other in there life let it be mother ...father, sister, frends..anyone...whom they wnt to be away from...coz there scared that someone might replace there position in the other persons life...Neeti went through the same..she was scared...that ujwal would forget her and get a new frend who would mean everything for him and whereas he meant everything for her...

I saw sherlock holmes today..what an amazin movie...expecially coz it has DOwney Junior in it...aaahh...what an actor...superbly acted in the movie...

Muaaah downey junior..

i hate writing posts twice.. :(

Some M-I-X-E-D Emotions

Yup long time again since ive blogged.....I cant help it...coz after i reach home i get into my cousins sangeet's practise....we are dancing on a series of songs...and iam in most of them and want to be on par with others and dont want to lag behind....

Many things happening at my end...something worth mentioning is meeting my frend Rohit vishnu who was my friend in school...I am so glad something like facebook exists...other wise i wouldnt be finding all my frendz from school..anywayz he was in hyd for 2 days so i made sure that this time i would surely meet him up at any cost..so i called him near my office at Barista...and we met.....you cant believe what was the first thing he said seeing me.....your stilll so shhhhhhhhoooort.... :(.....He dint grow much tall ether :P....Jk...apart from that...all the talks of schooling..trying to get info on whats going on with the others...etc etc....he had to leave for mysore (infosys ) the next day so he had to leave early...even i had to get back to office....but i was glad i got to meet him....i wish i get to meet all my frendz...togethe... missing em all....

"School days are the best days no doubt"....

At my office front....nothing great happening...works going on...dont really want to comment much on my professional life...coz its getting hectic day by day...

Before i forget...my boss is such a frequent facebook user...i mean looks like he uses it more than i do.....Just today whn i changed my status sitting in the office and with in next 15 minutes whn i went into his cabin to talk to him..as soon as i entered he said...SO neha you want to go on a long holiday???and i was like sir....aapne facebook pe check bhi karliya type...and giving my stunned look....then i was pretending and showing off on how less hectic my job has got and how the course has become a pain in the a**........seriously....right now all iam waiting for is the end of april.....whn i write my examz and get rid of this hectic and crazzy course....

guess what.....saira and paul are back....it happened long back but as i couldnt update my blog i couldnt update you with this...Iam happy that saira is happy...and i have feeling paul is very much positive whn it comes to saira now....unlike Karan...who isnt still understnding geet's feelings....But may be karan choses to be this way with her..and its high time she accepts....shes tried enufff...and if he wants to be treated as a friend she should..

Dont let your friends...best friends....boy friends or anyone take you for granted.....you never know you might end up doing something....which might not land you up in the similar kinda relationship you want to share with him / her...But yes whn you share a bonding with someone...you jst want to be theres...and you expect them to be yours...think and feel the way you do for them...Just would say...as i say to saira...you dont need to change..just be the way you are and you have been for paul...dotn worry abt what he thinks...just be yourself....

Above written lines are a lil complicated to understand..wish you could read between the lines...and understnd what iam trying to say...

Went home on the republic day...i was so happy so relaxed there....for that very day..i felt being job lesss is so kinda fun...its the best feeling ever...i was doing nothing all time eating and talking nothing else....Mom for the first time said somethin so touching...not that she doesnt say touching stuff every time but....usually she does nt show anything...May be thats how Ma's are supposed to be.... She said she was happy i had gone to meet her...and i felt so touched by those words..

Ma i miss you..... your the best thing....I wish i could jst give all the happiness who havent seen for a while now.... i will soon make things better ( i will try for sure)..

Enuff of senti stuff...Kya karien Ma hai hi aisi cheez....shes so funny u wont believe..shewill ask me to reduce my weight all the day long...and whn i go home..she will feed me like a baby...wlll get me food every half an hour.... Iam sorry for hurting you ma....i feel bad for behaving like a brat at times....and she hates me for nt cleaning my almera..i cant help it....its too small for me...lol...comparitively big enuff...

Love ya MA.....

Guess what...My fone...its so no point getting that airtel ka recharge done....you know why...mera stupid fone kharab ho gaya.....i havnt been able to msg anyone...everytime i freaking try to it gets into a coma mode..and after 5 minutes...it comes back to its normal self...so its been almost more than 4 days that this messagoholic has not been able to message anyone..i shall soon go to a nokia service centre guy...

Okay its already 12.55 P.m. and i have to start making the retail industry (presentation in college)ppt ....so have to work on it...No college tomorow luckily..so can wake up hour late....

I missed writing .. :)

Hey before i forget try listeningand this song... Uff teri Adaa from the movie Kartik Calling Kartik....sexxxy song.....you will surely start moving....coz iam...lol . :p.....i like it so much...coz i can relate to it....peekee pilake naach... :P.....lol...After hearing the song Karan called up and said that this is how i would be dancing if i got drunk and this song was played...Worth a watch guyz..farhans looknig good and deepika is just being her natural self( i like her as an actress thats the reason iam sayng so)....lol..

Aal Izz Well actually works.....

I was just moving around the office and i got back on my desk with my worried brain. I so badly wanted to get over what i was going through....Why is it so painfull to accept a No.... :(.....I was feeling really upset for geet and saira....saira geet have been thinking of weird stuff to get over thier depression levels....so for a moment staring into my monitor ( which looks like a tv) eeks...(old khatara box.)..gonna get back to my old monitor tomorow. Saw one of my good freinds whose kknowing whats going wid me and around me online and he buzzed me and asked All iz Well??? and i said to my self All iz well.........and ifelt better i was trying to think wat amir khan told in the movie..if you tell ur heart all is going well and bluff to him you will really feel better...and from then on whnever i feel low..i tell myself all iz well...and i feel all my worries are verry lil and i can let go of them easily....so i guess you should try it as well guyz...re bhaiya all iz well.... :)....thanks aamir khan.. :)

Lots of stuff has been happening at my end....last 2 days have been full of happy stuff...got to know a verry good friend...

Started gyming... :( .....i dont like it..but i have to as iam going fat...i see many ppl writing on weight loosing ...( they surely gimme inspiration )..i was just going through harshita and preeti shenoy's blogs and reading there weight loss formulaes...and felt that i dont think its so impossible...

My boss plans to make me permanent now .aaand iam so happy about it....nothing else can make you feel better than getting permanent in ur org and realising that they are actually in need of you... :)

Power went off and i couldnt complete this post...and now i dont remember what i was feeling that day so here i go leaving it incomplete...apologies...I HATE POWER CUTS... :(

humming the song - i know you wan me you know i wantchya by calle ocho... amazing song...try listening to it.. :)

for yemiledu

Iam writing this only for Archana.... this is the first time i ve done this..and it has made me think...was a difficult task..but i enjoyyed doing it...

1. What is your current obsession?
A. Eating (coincidently it is not current one..but has been there for ever)

2. What are you wearing today?
A. UMM t-shirt and Jealous jeans

3. What’s for dinner?
A. some chutney which my sister's nieghbour made with white rice..

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
A. Novels..

5. What are you listening to right now?
A. Sorry by Madonna

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
A. A very nice person who would appreciate what ppl write..

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
A. hmm... Goa or New Zealand or...any where near the beach...

8.One thing you wanna change about yourself ?
A. Get some height and loose some weight

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
A. hmm... New Zealand is what i can think of...

10. Which language do you want to learn?
A. too many...

11. What’s your favourite quote?
A. "sometimes appreciation can help some recognise their strengths"....
be genuine in what you do... there are a list of quotes i like...

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
A. may be my Ma...

13. What is your favourite colour?
A. Black...orange..pink....perl blue....red...white....

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.
A. kajal in the eyes ....smile on my lips....and anything i feel comfortable in...

15. What is your dream job?
A. to own a food joint....and serve healthy good food...

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
A. Cosmopolitan and india today

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
A. i would save it..and add on more money and get a professional camera..

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
A. I dont know..

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
A. i dont know again...

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
A. the one i hav right now

21. What are you going to do after this?
A. go and read the books i have got...

22. What are your favourite movies?
A. other sister...hangover.... i cant remember the others..and ya my latest fav.. 3 idiots//

23. What inspires you?
A. Appreciation and practical ppl

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
A. Neha...

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?
A. coffee...chocolate coffee which we get at convineo

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
A. eat like crazzy and sleep...

27. What makes you go wild?
A. ignorance...and arrogance

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
A. the ones i can relate and all of those who are on my followers list...

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
A. bulls eye....sizzling brownie...fruit cake....garam gulab jamun with ice cream...

30. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
A. 6

31. Favorite Season?
A. spring

32 .would u cook for me?
A. obviously yes

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
A. Not talk to them...or may be spank them...or i would write a letter.. and finish it there and then..

34. What are you afraid of the most?
A. Driving and Dogs ... :(

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
A. i thought nothing..

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?
A. A hug..

37. A word that you say a lot?
A. Are you kidding me....And Hushyari mat maro... n eeeeksss..aand eeeewww... and hmmmmmm....

38.One wish that you really want to see it come true?
A. too many of em....an awesome job in a good branded company and an MBA from the top B- schools....



Rules for those who are tagged:Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.[Break the rules if you want but do Answer all ;~)]Note-Copy and paste this into your notes, delete mine and type in your answers and tag your friends to answer this.And,

I’ll tag : juhi...
ashish..
rohit..
choco lover..
yemiledu
that is it as of now..i dont know many ppl to tag.... lets see what u guys reply..

This is how my new year started

I dont know why new year day is so hyped up just like another festival it comes every year...i never knew ppl needed reasons to celebrate...

My new years night was good.... :).... i chucked my plans with my frend and went back home wore a smart top and jjeans and got comfortable and went to shamshabad Novotel...for the big bang beautifully decorated ONE PARTY....there was good food ...lovely music which was being played by DJ aqeel.....and ofcourse...cute guyz....accompanied with prettty girls...we were four of us....3 girls and 1 guy....and it was fun...i was staring at this guy while dancing....one reason...he was looking cute and the other was that he looked familiar..and i feltt i had seen him....after 10 minutes of brain storming...i spent doing that coz he was in front of me dancing wid his group and i could clearly see him...he also could make out from my face that he knew i was trying to think who he was....after like ten minutes i screamed he is PRAGYAN OJHA....which nobody could here...thanks to the loud music which was being played..he loooked so HAWWTTT.....trust me.... i could not get a picture with him...coz i was feeling awkward....standing right in front of him for like half n hour..and dancing and staring at him..thinking who he was...and then whn i realise who he was..going n asking him for a pic....so weird...eeeeewww... i missed on taking a pic wid himm...

hmm....so we got back arnd 4 in the morning...and slept till 11 in the morning...had to wake up forcefully as we had to go out for lunch to Yoko sizzlers...with my sister and jiju...the place is good...sizzlers are heavy....i couldnt eat it all ...i had to share it with nerdy...we both eat it...but the sizzzling brownie sucked there big time..i hate it whn ppl screw up sizzling brownies... :(

then we went to meet mom....yesterday...things got emotional...i met abhudi...oh gawd...the moment i saw her i had tears in my eyes..ma had made gulab jamun for jiju and k.....myself ...ma and k have one thing in commong we three like garam garam gulab jamuns like crazzy...they taste so yummy...there was another mouth watering dis...Dahi wada...which tasted yummm....ma ka haath ka khana is so heavenly.... then we left at around 10.30 and reached back at hyd by arnd 12... on the way i had a lil not so needed argument in the car with these guyz...i dnt think i should be opening up with ppl much now..coz they fail to understnd me..and i hate it...especially whn it comes to k....i hate it so much....

Today i had the worst lecture from this lady called beena on emotional Intelligence...eeeks what a bad topic to give a lecture on...i heard nothing what the lady said...she was boring and tha content she had to share was even more boring...she dragged it from 7.45 to 11.15...just imagine a long dragged uup boring lecture on emotional intelligence..i dotn want to think abt it....

then i left college and went to city centre....and looked around whole lot of books at crossword....i love that place....i wish i had crossword in my house....and some coffee at coffee day and read a magazine there...and bought 2 books to read for myself....then i went to mc donalds and had a veg burger...which did not taste as bad as it usuallly does...the best part of all this ws...i did it all alone...:)...i dint need any one...after i was done..i saw these 2 guzy in business suits..and i started to dream of me soon becoming a business woman...oh i wish i could soon reach that stage...and be big woman... :)...

got back home and slept..as i had stuffed myself..big time...and after i was awake i realised how badly i wanted to write about how the new year has started off...another big things happneing are..i had a fight wid gabbar....and i dont think i want to talk to him....as it has gone over board this time..i tried and i dont think its gonna work to get bck..so iam not interested in gettting back things to normalisation either...and sarabjit is nt replying to me...i guess i hve made enufff fool of my self ...that shoud be the reason for him not to reply to me...so this is how the day is going...

:)