When Navratra takes a toll on me

Being a avid lover of music and dance I enjoy this festival a lot. The sound of the dandiya..especially when they come along together then those beautiful moves of garbha where your hand and body swing to the music and  that beat of the drum…all together in big ground where everyone is just bothered about themselves and nothing else…they call it being “magn” in hindi.

I sometimes wish I was born in a gujju family to enjoy this festival extensively. I think it also comes with a fact that I love to dance…and moving the way garbha requires you to move is fun..totally brings a smile on my face.

If you play a loud dandiya or garbha track around me..you will see my feet tapping and hands moving..coz I can’t stop. The music is exciting and attracting that you cannot let go of it.

By the way I write I am sure your thinking that I go do dandiya and garbha this time of every year but no… even though I whole like seriously WHOLE heartedly enjoy it but I don’t get to go. The music is so addictive for me that when I am travelling back from work..i think and feel the world around me doing garbha with this nice garbha music in the back drop..wow it would be if I could join them on the way :P (my crazy filmy dreams I tell you )..if I get a chance I would go all decked up in gujrati clothing and dance all the 9 days…so now you know how I like it.

Some songs that can make your feet go tapping are..

·         Pari hun main

·         Chand aaya hai zamin par – Dil hi dil main

·         Shubhaarambh  - kai po che

·         Womaniya – with some drum beats of garbha

·         Main toh bhul chali babul ka desh

·         Sherawaliye..

Saavn has an exclusive playlist of these songs..i loved it…I just have one thing to say…

Let the Raas begin… (for me in my head for you if you can go hit the garbha & Dandiya ground from tomorrow)

 

Are you on someone’s priority list?

I have come across this really negative and low feeling where I have had some friends whom I have shared a really great relationship with. Those friends have been the ones whom I have looked up to at point of happiness or sad times and yes they have looked up to sharing the same with me too.

With such friends or likeminded people when you start being around them for long, we start to get comfortable and want to be around with them more because of a simple reason that it makes you happy.

But we realize over a period of time that may be you are not that particular person’s priority as you had thought it had been. Sudden changes start to hit you when this starts to happen. You get so used to the comfort level of the person that the absence of that person makes you feel lost and worried.

I have for some strange reason come across these typical type of people a little less than frequently. And trust me I hate it when someone does that. Do not treat anyone like your priority if you will not sustain the relationship for long. And it does not just happen in a couple relationships where there is marriage or love but it also happens between friends where the hurt is equivalent to that of couples.

I have set my priority people right…but I still come across those who make me feel like iam their priority and my heart gets compelled to give in…and then a time comes when your thought does not even strike them. It hurts!! Honestly it does. But then over a period of time you have to make yourself realize  that may be it was good that they went away for various reasons which could be

1.       Too many people in your priority list can get difficult to handle.No one gets the right attention and you become the cruel one even you dont want to.

2.       After they go you realize you wasted so much time on them instead you could use it on the others who deserved it better

3.       One definite reason is the ones who deserve your attention start getting it..even though they never complained  about it but tried ..tried to be there with you always.

So get your priority people right!! And yes don’t forget to tell them because expressing gratitude always brings happiness.

The ‘One Loving Person” who lasts forever

I consider people who have that one loving person in their life’s very lucky. No not all of us are lucky. You must want to say there is a difference of opinion... We might have that very person in our lifes.But they are either too far for us to reach when we really want them around or no one has really expressed that deep concern for you yet.

Everyone wants that one special person around them who loves them the most, who cares not 100% but 50% with heart and soul in it and not halfheartedly. These ‘one loving person’ type of people just make others life easy and help making the best use of their life’s and give the best memories even in the sad times.

‘One loving person’ makes sure even by being far leaves his presence around. This person would make sure to be around in your bad…and you’re good. Will make sure you don’t get those times that you hate yourself.. This person would make you fall in love with yourself…and not hate. Nothing stops them from getting up in the middle of the night even if you are 100 miles away to call and tell you that they just love you for what you are. These people believe you as the person who will do anything for them and will do the same for you in return.

They sense the sadness in their loved ones voice the quickest…and they know to get it out best…even better than your own parents or family can. They would make sure you know when you are remembered…even if it was a vegetable at a random place that reminded them of you….this person would know and help you deal with every other person you come across in your lifetime

They do it all. But what they do best is…let you know how much they love you for whatever kind of person you are… (Yes I write that in bold as this is that one quality that separates them from the aam janta we live with. These are treasured people. You will definitely not find them in abundance) and when they tell you that they will be there with you always…you will be convinced and trust me you know they wouldn’t lie. Because they have never proved you wrong or let you down in showing their love for you.

Some find this love in parents. In their siblings….their life partners…some in their kids too…

While some are really lucky to have all of them around...the others just have too many people around but not even one loving person among them.

Today for once just be glad to have that one person in your life that you think is the ‘one loving person’ of your life who would last forever…                                                                                                                     

Some lines by George carlin which describe the “one loving person”

1. Remembers, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all means it. An embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

2. Remembers to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

3. Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

My 3 Wishes for today and for a while now..

The 3 things that I wish I could have are… today and for a while now I have been badly craving for these things to happen.

 

1.       I want to stay with my mother and sisters along with my pretty nieces for a longer time. I realize how important they are and how much I miss them only after I am married which means we live in different cities. And my life is so packed right now that I can’t go and stay with them for a few days. In those few days by the time my nieces start to realize who I am it’s time for me to get back to my routine life. Even a vacation would do well with them.

2.       I am just being a little selfless and selfish at the same time in this second wish. I want my husband to get what he wants out of his job this year so that if that works better I am assuming he would be able to come home faster or rather leave home a little late and take a few more offs than he does in a year.. Just so that we get to spend more time with each other. I badly want him to relax. This wish is totally based on my assumption that life will get easier after he gets what he wants out of his job this year.

3.       Get thin all by doing nothing …Eat, eat, eat ….and not get fat….Just like every other girl I wish this. I thank god for not making me really fat but I am on the plump side and I don’t like it and I am too short which eventually makes me look fat L …I try to work on it but It just gets tougher after a while.. I tend to give up every time I start. So I just wanting to be thin and also considering I love to eat. Let me eat peacefully without worrying that I will never be able to get fat with the entire calorie intake I do.

Naya Ghar – Na-pasand…..

Just when we started liking the house we were staying in the owner asked us to vacate the house for his relatives (he couldn’t say a no coz their relative was dealing with cancer and the treatment takes too long a time…and we dint have a choice to say no)…so the search had begun for a perfect house to stay in….and the house we have moved in was chosen becoz of three reasons

1. Coz it is spacious and not compact as the others in this area

2. It makes PD’s travel to office convenient

3. Falls in our budget…yes its so important to have a house fall in the budget you want it to in Mumbai (the city of kharcha)

So we moved into this naya ghar on this Saturday….the first day went on with all unpacking and cleaning of the house….we realized the kitchen was extremely dirty and decided to call the house cleaners and they charged us 1100 just to do the cleaning of the kitchen..we couldn’t help it….we had to pay it considering the fact that we have to stay in this house for the next 5 months for sure….thats how the annoying contract is….so we cannot do anything about it…  …not to forget to mention PD has been at his best since this Saturday….he has been doing all he can….with this crazy woman who is so scared of rats…

We unpacked the kitchen stuff on Sunday and I cooked a happy meal for us and we slept happily assuming we are well settled In this house ….and will get up in the morning to start the good beginning of the new house on Monday….but no….that was not what was in store for us…we woke up to see the terror in the kitchen the rats had created…they had eaten the tomatoes and kheera…left on the fridge...ate the wheat flour packet into bits and pieces to get the damn taste of the flour…How ugly and yuck can these rats be.

We got one of the rats removed on Sunday night..and then we figured out there is another one…so got the rat killing poison and had it placed every where….another went out yesterday ….and no they are not going to let us live happily…we figured out at 3.00 AM in the morning that there is another one in the hall…in the broken switch board which we have packed tight so that It doesn’t come out…iam not very gutsy to remove it myself and PD has left for work already and due to lack of time he hasn’t been able to do so too..so iam waiting for the broker to come and get it out…by noon…

I have a lot of reasons for not liking this house…if taken positively…they cannot be considered but thanks to this dreadful rat experience I don’t think I can like this house…and everything looks like a trouble to me…

Things I dislike in this naya ghar…

1. RATS – I hate animals…they beat the shit out of me….i wish I could sent them to jail for eating my house away…(nothing positive abt this one)

2. Dislike the door bell : it sings om bhur bhuvaswaha…It rings really low …( I should be liking it I know god is going to punish me for saying this but I cannot HELP disliking it)

3. Dirty walls: I hate the walls..the earlier residents did not keep the walls clean….they had too many kids who spoilt the walls… they make the house look ugly

4. Bed mattress : Its sssssoooo bad….the worst things in the house so far…we haven’t slept on it even once…

5. Smell : there is this typical smell In this house which is not leaving us to live happily…we’ve bought a room freshner..but the bad smell seems to beat the good smell.. 

6. Toilet : we are soon going to have the spray flash In the toilet its not there..we are using the mugga  ….indian system

Out of some good things in this house one is the windows…they are big…they make me want to keep them open all day long but I can’t unfortunately coz of the ugly irritating RATS….we have painting going on in our apartment …by which this irritating rats climb the bamboo sticks and come up and reside in our crazy house…

This house has been upsetting….it has just been so annoying to face something or the other every night and not have a good night’s sleep…

I miss the old house even though it had less of amenities and too much of dust…it was just perfect..and the society made me feel secure….in this area all I see is animals…dogs, rats, cats and what not… 

I want something good to happen to me and PD. Something we both can rejoice about n be happy. We are heading to manipal this weekend with my in-laws…(my first outing with my in-laws)…yes iam looking forward to it…also looking forward to seeing the memories PD shares with that place….

I hope manipals trip brings goodluck, wealth, happiness and the courage to our family to go thru all the bad times…for example the rat times  ….

Surprise your love today for what she is with you…

I have a hell lot of little ideas in my mind which I think men should do for their women… and let me tell you….some women just like the little things men do for them….i don’t think I want to comment on PD…cuz he is the worst of all men I have come across in giving anything for the matter of fact…I even suggest him to do a few things for me…but there is no hope in his case..….forget surprises….


These silly little tricks can make your women feel wanted….which is a right you being a man should give to your lady…and let me tell you…

These are basically for those men who are mstly held up at work for hours and hours…and your wifes wait for your focus, attention and LOVE after you come home…

Obviously these are surprises…and not the things you tell before you do..and don’t forget WOMEN LOVE SURPRISES

1. Get her a rose….oh ….dont forget a chocolate to accompany with it…

2. One day just ask her not to cook…and take her to a food joint she had been craving and raving about a few days back.

3. Write a sweet small letter or a note (don’t copy things from the internet- let it be original)

4. A small cake on a random day.. Saying I love you

5. Take her for an ice cream….late night

6. If she has been a big buff of movies…take her for a movie this weekend…and ask her if she would want to watch back to back movies and experience how it feels

7. Tell her how best she cooks something

8. Write just 4 to 5 lines saying - what I like about you : state 5 reasons…drop it on your bed before you leave to work.

9. One fine day a random materialistic present does wonders…women love gifts..

10. A final one…make sure you get home early on those special dates…. Anniversaries , birthdays etc….and make sure you don’t leave her alone…however bad it can get…if you miss out on it…give her the special feeling on the next day….or the same date of the next month to compensate….she will be surprised n will be delighted..

Remember that she deserves to be felt special…..coz shes the one who craves for your time, attention, focus and LOVE….as I said it before…Do it and let me know how she feels…you busy men….

Cricket Match Live!! And we lost!!!But am happy…

Thanks to PD’s firm we got two free passes to watch the Mumbai Indians match at Wankhade stadium…The delight on my face when PD called to tell me that we would be hitting off to see the match was so crazy…I was so excited…coz I would get to see all the players live and in front of me playing….


I was to reach the stadium by 8.00 Pm (and its obvious ppl reach late everywhere in Mumbai)…When the local was nearing the churchgate station…I could already hear the oooohhhss and aaahhss...and it looked so exciting and promising…

Till we reached we had already missed out the first 6 overs…and the crowd was in full swing….after reaching our seat …I must mention we were at the sachin stand… (although it was not that great to be in that stand coz all you get to see is his back…and nothing else…why on earth would he look back and wave at me…as I was not even right behind him)…

The view to the ground was good…it looked so filmy…the green green grass looked like they had put a light green carpet on the ground…the flashy lights looked like there was some major thing happening(yes the MI match is surely a major thing…but not when they end up losing with KKR)

MI played really bad…and when we got out right before the last over (coz the match happened to be pretty obvious win for KKR)..All we could hear ppl say is “every time I come to see the match.. MI loses the match”…I remember kids giving out a gujju version of that line too….almost everyone was saying it…and so was I …but it wasn’t that disappointing for me…I enjoyed every bit of the glam sham, noise, music, cheers…every little thing of it..

I screamed and roared in full swing every time when Mumbai was playing well… (Which hardly happened)…I participated in all the Mexican waves that passed by me... you hardly can hear anyone else except for the ones around you…so much noise after all…

All in all what an awesome and a time a to remember….you hardly can see the players coz they all look so teeny weeny from the top…but yes…who cares unless I got to see SACHIN live….…

The we came across PD’s colleagues who were sweet, generous and humored…with a lot of their office gossip we hit it off to pavilion(I think that was the name) at the Alpha to grab some pav bhaji at 2.00pm  …and they dropped us back home…No wonder Mumbai looks the best in the middle of the night with the sparkling lights..  ….



More to come…on the two best things that happened to me last Sunday…Ishaqzaade and Tea for two and a piece of cake  

Palak Paneer & Disappointment

Off late ive been looking forward to cooking something new or the other for PD…Today I made something different than the regular curries…I made palak paneer today. For some it might not be a big deal but for me it was coz of 2 reasons


1. I haven’t cooked it earlier.

2. I cook regular vegetables everyday. This one has paneer so it automatically gets a richer curry.

But yes…my excitement of PD coming home and trying it out soon died after he called me at around 8.30 to say he would be late as he is meeting up with his friends from office… No wonder it is disappointing. And if I tell him anything he would tell me I keep picking faults every now and then…so I have chosen to be quiet and calm today. It’s going to be 10:00 in 10 minutes….and ya I think iam a lil hungry…but I don’t want to eat alone and dose off..would want to try it with PD. I hope he doesn’t eat out and come.

Its unfair on his part to ignore me…but he wouldn’t get it. If I write more ill write about his bad habbits which I don’t want to. Writing bad about your spouse’s represents that your not happy with him/her. Its not that with me I believe that it takes time to adjust and I think I am taking my own time and getting used to his habbits…

But one major difference ive noticed so far after getting married…boy friends are more concerned than husbands are …..its not a generic statement…I say it completely with my experience..and I don’t think it will be the same in your case….your lucky if its not the same in your case…

I hope the palak paneer doesn’t disappoint me as PD has…. a pic of my palak paneer. let me know if anyone wants a recipe..

A Want to Explore this New City

It’s been two weeks I moved to Bombay and no it shouldn’t be called Mumbai…and ive just been looking around the place I live…that is to get grocery and walk around a little or just go watch a movie to the nearest mall… But I know this city has a lot more to watch …since my childhood all ive heard “Bombay ki life bohot fast hai”…I think they say so for just a simple reason..this city is huge and it takes hell lot of time go from one place to another….and the fastest means to get to the next place is the trains…so ppl end up rushing for the trains… and so far I haven’t figured out any other reason for ppl to rush..

This is my first weekend in Mumbai…and I am excited to plan it but my lazy husband is not gaming for it…he is the biggest looser when it comes to planning and executing trips let it be to the nearby mall or a weekend getaway or a 15 day trip…

Wonder what makes ppl not explore their surroundings …enough of cribbing and talking bad abt him… ;)

Back to the title of the post….

I stay in Joegshwari where in our flat is located right next to the main road…so lots of noise of the vehicles…day in and day out… I haven’t got a chance to look around much..could be becoz iam busy with work at home or could be that I don’t want to go alone…But with the places ive been to I can say that Bombay is a city full of ppl.. you go to malls, bus stands, railway stations , Hotels, offices, roads every where and anywhere there are loads and loads of ppl creating traffic…

No wonder ppl say “Yeh hai Mumbai meri jaan”

Back to Writing

Yes It’s been really long that I’ve written my heart out and back to do it in full swing with good motivation levels…(they are not so good coz I’ve been wanting to write since last three days and I ended up doing it today)…

I wonder why I stopped blogging. Was there too much to write or things not worth writing or another simple reason could be that I am just too lazy.

But yes now with a lot of inspiration am getting back to what I think I do good and can improve on it if I do more often – Writing.

Lots of things have happened off late... if I haven’t mentioned in my earlier post then yes let me tell you the biggest change which has happened – I am Married now :p… I live in a different house, am surrounded with different people; I live in a room with a man J who I think loves me, a different city, etc. etc….too many changes to mention

Who have seen me before marriage and who would meet me now would be shocked to meet me and find me in this avatar….it’s a transformation I have gone thru (not by choice and not even by chance)…I don’t know whether am enjoying it or not coz there is no feeling in it…. But it seems to be going right so I am assuming I like it…

There’s more to come from my end…a post a day is surely what I plan to write. Or maybe two in a day could be possible too (out of too many things that I want to get out of my heart).

A New Version of "Me"

i wrote a big post and it got deleted i hate you whoever killed it :( :( :(:(

First of all iam not liking this version of me which is so bloody quiet and htis happens not right not at all right...
irrritated so wont continue

My Most Awaited Vacation

All thanks to fido i got a chance to visit this place for our mini vacation after our wedding...Kanatal is this place near Dehradun , Mussorie....

We were to stay at the Kanatal Resorts and Spa...i know sounds so grand isnt it...it was....we were scared it wouldn't be as good as they show in pictures...but its exactly the same...there are two routes to visiting kanatal...one is thru Dehradun and the other is thru Rishikesh, Haridwar....While going we travelled by flight to Delhi from pune and then took a Cab to Kanatal and picked the first route which is of Dehradun....Cars make me sleep big time so...priyank was the one who was awake....with the cabby..two things kept him awake...one he was doubtful about the driver and the other was he was scared about the ghat roads...he hadn't been to such an height before....

Was Cute to watch him get tensed...

We reached in the morning and fido and surprised me by booking a Suite..i was really excited to see it cuz..never in my life ever has anyone made me feel so special ....and never ever have i stayed in a Suite before...and i was glad enough to not get disappointed....i rushed in and tugged myself in the bed with cozy blankets where as priyank was busy exploring their services....

The staff was being reallly sweet...they arranged for a candle light dinner...and cooked all what we wanted for breakfast , lunch and dinner......

There peak season for visiting kanatal is during May - June....Make sure you carry all warm clothes while visiting this place....

Tried to upload the pictures but the net connectivity dint support :-(...

Missing you like ive never missed you before

"I MISS YOU"

These lines are being said by me more often these days..i think some understand how iam really feeling and some hardly care...

Ive been missing alot of ppl off late....especially fido...i never thought id miss him so much...feels like iam having a different kind of courtship period..wasnt it a rule that husband and wife should be staying together after they are married...wasnt it made by god...then why are ppl forced to stay apart..i miss his nonsense...i miss his mimicry..i miss to randomly trouble him...i miss to hug him tight and sleep by his side...that fool hardly understands how much i miss him....wish he did....

then i miss my baccha party..the kids of my house...all the random nonsense they gave to me after i got back from work...kids are the best way of distracting urself ....

Missing my poopoo....oh.....i havent spoken to him for long...iam scared id cry to him...and he would understand how much i miss him..i miss to have those sily arguments with him....i miss to talk to him...

missing my mum..and i know she misses me too....shes someone who expresses it of all ppl...i miss you ma....i miss your silly calls...

i miss not only ppl...but i miss doing alot of things...i miss talking...i miss being distracted doing things i like to do...i miss my work...not that iam not liking the way iam right now...but it just that...i am not being constructive...having this kind of an experience is an experience in itself too...

Sometimes ppl and things just make u realise how importnt they are in ur life...

Keeping things to Ones Self....

Sometimes it gets so important to keep things to your self....Social networking sites are a wonderful rage in this era where in everyone posts stuff about their near and dear ones.
I just encountered something which if i have done in past will never do again and if i havent done it yet i will never ever do it.....
Posting your feelings is absoultely right...but i think i want to tell the person whom i want to share it with...not the whole world...you never know how might end up hurting or making ppl happy or sad about it..
I hold this very strong feeling...cant get it off....came across something on my friends FB wall....which hurt me....i dont know if it was written in a context where in iam by far even related but it did hurt me..

I think if ppl who read understand what iam trying to say then you will know why i ask you to not do so...

Strange Feeling

Everyone around me seems to be hurrying for the wedding but i dont know why i dont understand the need for the rush..the wedding is still 25 days from today...anywayz....i dont know why i cant understand the need to Rush...
I havent been blogging for long..not for many reasons but just one which is "Iam Lazy"...not that i had many things to do..just that i loving the pace at which my life was moving...
I have been missing mum...trust me when i say i always thought i wouldnt..but this feeling of things not being the same after a month...is making me love her even more....she just doing her best to keep me happy for lifetime.
apart from the feelings that iam going thru as mentioned above iam also going thru this feeling of "like'ism"...i hope there exists a word like that...just happening to like a few ppl...may be i just realised a lil late that they were existing around me and i never realised they were such great ppl..cant believe a person like me who notices so much can unnotice special ppl :P ;P...okay i am just exaggerating....but my friends have been reallly supportive...maybe i just realised that some ppl are worth not forgetting...and they wouldnt even mind if you dont forget them and get on their nerves :P

ANywayz..my lazyness has sunk in me again...so i shall blog back sooonnn

Can i hold on to this moment....

How i wish i could touch the sky...
How i wish...i could run fast and fall into your arms...
How i wish...life was much more easier and their was less struggle in it...
How i wish....i could spend this time with you and tell u how i feell...
How i wish...i could hold on to a few moments and feel them..till iam not wanting to let go of them...

And i can go on like this for so many things...but why is it that when in conversations we tell ppl that we miss those good old times and we wont ever get them back....why cant we just scroll back in time...and stick to that moment for a few more hours...
Touch wood...everything is going fine...and i am happy with the way things are going on .....ive got a reallly loving partner....whom i alwayz wanted....amazing parents...and best of friends...and a job which makes me happy...what else does anyone need..isnt this what we call a perfect life..iam happy...and i want to hold on to it..for somemore time...if not for long...but for a few more hours extra... :) :)...

i cant wait to experience my future..and iam so glad about my past...but i still want to hold on to something which is my present...

yes...i ate allot for dinner and this is the result...
2 good songs you should listen to : Chahoon bhi toh kaise kahun from the movie FORCE and Mausam movie's title song(looking forward to watch the appealing look of shahid kapur ) :)

say it by yourself..

This is going to be surely one of those posts where in iam just letting the emotion out ....the feeelin iam going thru right now...without any thinking iam just writing in....cuz iam reallly low tonight...

Iam scared and worried....i dont know if you love me...cuz you dont say it....
You all must be wondering ....whom am i talking....iam talking about this general human being....who knows he is being superly loved by someone...
I just realised on how much ....i love my mother..even though i never told her...but i do now...irealise all of how much she has done for me....how much pain she has taken for me...just becoz she loves me...and yes i loveher too...but i alwayz complained and behaved cranky..never made he feel it...but today i want her to know that i love her like crazy...i want her to feel the emotion and get happy...
Coz there is nothing else in the world than hearing the person you love so much say a i love you in return...who does not want to be loved....it feels so good and wanted when somone comes and says I love you...

I dontwant to write any further...its just making go depressed...Desperately want someone and everyone to know that....just say it guys....dont ignore it....its just three words but they can compensate alll the emotions are words u want to express forever..

Hard Decisions to make...cuz iam gonna miss it...

Its 2.oo Pm in the afternoon and iam so freakingly worried...the wedding date is still four months away...and i am expected to quit or rather i also want to quit by the end of August..want to spend time with mum and the other members of the family ( this feeling surely comes to any girl be it a single family or a joint family)(i being in a joint family am feeling it quite alot..

Ive worked for this company for almost 18 months now and it has become a part of my life..you usually tend to segregate your life in different parts which are most important periods that you would want to keep as beautifull memories..

My workplace..where i got my first job is certainly a place where i have had beautifull memories...i entered this company when it was just a caterpillar and now its going to soon be a butterfly by this year end....but does my journey end by the end of august????this question is haunting me..irritating me and making me go crazzy...why???bcoz i have no answer for it...

This very moment when i need someone to talk to....i have no body....i cant share it wiht my friends coz they will not get it...they will think that i should start prioritizing things...i cannot share it with any of my other friends who are working coz they wouldnt feel the emotion and would not consider talking to me on something like this...

This is the place where my work is considered ...where iam known for what i do...in the way i do...my department is known by my name in this company...and yes..all thanks to the co-founders and the ppl whom i work with ....make me realise it...Iam fortunate to have worked with such wonderfull ppl...

Every day ppl ask me what have i decided and iam so confused do i have an answer for that question ....NO i dont...can i leave my department this way...when it will need me so much...no i cant...coz i have an attachment...a connect which no one can see and feel..

Iam just hurt cuz iam not able to decide on how to solve this situation....and i badly want someone to listen to me..

i will miss this company and my job when i am not here in hyd... you guyz rock...have been the best colleagues i will ever have....

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Theres this song In the movie chalo dilli called Matargashtiyan….freak such an hilarious one but I seem to like it….Osama died…: ) : )….iam glad he did…peace to all those ppl who lost their loved ones all becoz of him…DC lost terribly..iam bored of watching cricket matches..i guess these guyz should be given some break… :P..may be a long summer vacation…but DC should be banned from IPL….god knows why are they even permitted to play….brrrrrr……not liking it…too many movies to catch up…

Life is taking a new turn….

Everyones life goes through this turn…and I consider myself fortunate enough to be taking this turn…even though iam scared ill fall…or may be iam hesitating…whether I will just hurt the people help me go through this path…you just want to make sure this is a safe ride…and you don’t wanna hurt anyone..i can see the speed breakers….and I know I will have to go through them…I just don’t want my bike to breakdown while driving on the speed breakers….it will get very difficult to ride this journey without it being there….

Yes…this is how it is….falling in love…taking a new turn into your regular…unusual zindagi..Iam going through it and it is surely an experience everyone should go through….knowing a person...getting addicted to the calls…getting used to the person..compromising on little things and feeling happy about doing them….and not in turn regretting them….its fun ….trust me this experience is a different kind….the want to sit mum on those late night calls when you run out of topics…not wanting to hang up on those calls…the want to spend maximum of your time thinking and talking about that particular person…yes.. it does happen…wanting to talk about that person to any and every person around you...someone actually starts ruling your mind and also your actions….you want to do all that can benefit the relationship….you want to make the surroundings of that particular person beautifulll and make sure they get to know that you they are really special to you….

This is what iam going through…. Strange but a beautiful feeling…the feeling which I hate to forget about…a person I don’t want to stop thinking about…I don’t know how ppl feelll whether its similar or is it different..But I know that whoever is going through it is just going through a roller coaster ride....:P..

Different ppl ….different natures…different lifestyles…but they want to just forget all those differences and have a happy life together by not living differently but by living with the differences..and accepting this special feeling of love..let it be how tough it can get..you still wanna be hang on…forget everything and give it a fresh start everytime just becoz this particular person starts to become a part of you…a part of everything you do….the song you sing…the food you eat….the movie you see…everything thing…

Dedicate this post to my hero – Fido – you surely are the one whose ruling my mind…Love you…