Some M-I-X-E-D Emotions

Yup long time again since ive blogged.....I cant help it...coz after i reach home i get into my cousins sangeet's practise....we are dancing on a series of songs...and iam in most of them and want to be on par with others and dont want to lag behind....

Many things happening at my end...something worth mentioning is meeting my frend Rohit vishnu who was my friend in school...I am so glad something like facebook exists...other wise i wouldnt be finding all my frendz from school..anywayz he was in hyd for 2 days so i made sure that this time i would surely meet him up at any cost..so i called him near my office at Barista...and we met.....you cant believe what was the first thing he said seeing me.....your stilll so shhhhhhhhoooort.... :(.....He dint grow much tall ether :P....Jk...apart from that...all the talks of schooling..trying to get info on whats going on with the others...etc etc....he had to leave for mysore (infosys ) the next day so he had to leave early...even i had to get back to office....but i was glad i got to meet him....i wish i get to meet all my frendz...togethe... missing em all....

"School days are the best days no doubt"....

At my office front....nothing great happening...works going on...dont really want to comment much on my professional life...coz its getting hectic day by day...

Before i forget...my boss is such a frequent facebook user...i mean looks like he uses it more than i do.....Just today whn i changed my status sitting in the office and with in next 15 minutes whn i went into his cabin to talk to him..as soon as i entered he said...SO neha you want to go on a long holiday???and i was like sir....aapne facebook pe check bhi karliya type...and giving my stunned look....then i was pretending and showing off on how less hectic my job has got and how the course has become a pain in the a**........seriously....right now all iam waiting for is the end of april.....whn i write my examz and get rid of this hectic and crazzy course....

guess what.....saira and paul are back....it happened long back but as i couldnt update my blog i couldnt update you with this...Iam happy that saira is happy...and i have feeling paul is very much positive whn it comes to saira now....unlike Karan...who isnt still understnding geet's feelings....But may be karan choses to be this way with her..and its high time she accepts....shes tried enufff...and if he wants to be treated as a friend she should..

Dont let your friends...best friends....boy friends or anyone take you for granted.....you never know you might end up doing something....which might not land you up in the similar kinda relationship you want to share with him / her...But yes whn you share a bonding with someone...you jst want to be theres...and you expect them to be yours...think and feel the way you do for them...Just would say...as i say to saira...you dont need to change..just be the way you are and you have been for paul...dotn worry abt what he thinks...just be yourself....

Above written lines are a lil complicated to understand..wish you could read between the lines...and understnd what iam trying to say...

Went home on the republic day...i was so happy so relaxed there....for that very day..i felt being job lesss is so kinda fun...its the best feeling ever...i was doing nothing all time eating and talking nothing else....Mom for the first time said somethin so touching...not that she doesnt say touching stuff every time but....usually she does nt show anything...May be thats how Ma's are supposed to be.... She said she was happy i had gone to meet her...and i felt so touched by those words..

Ma i miss you..... your the best thing....I wish i could jst give all the happiness who havent seen for a while now.... i will soon make things better ( i will try for sure)..

Enuff of senti stuff...Kya karien Ma hai hi aisi cheez....shes so funny u wont believe..shewill ask me to reduce my weight all the day long...and whn i go home..she will feed me like a baby...wlll get me food every half an hour.... Iam sorry for hurting you ma....i feel bad for behaving like a brat at times....and she hates me for nt cleaning my almera..i cant help it....its too small for me...lol...comparitively big enuff...

Love ya MA.....

Guess what...My fone...its so no point getting that airtel ka recharge done....you know why...mera stupid fone kharab ho gaya.....i havnt been able to msg anyone...everytime i freaking try to it gets into a coma mode..and after 5 minutes...it comes back to its normal self...so its been almost more than 4 days that this messagoholic has not been able to message anyone..i shall soon go to a nokia service centre guy...

Okay its already 12.55 P.m. and i have to start making the retail industry (presentation in college)ppt ....so have to work on it...No college tomorow luckily..so can wake up hour late....

I missed writing .. :)

Hey before i forget try listeningand this song... Uff teri Adaa from the movie Kartik Calling Kartik....sexxxy song.....you will surely start moving....coz iam...lol . :p.....i like it so much...coz i can relate to it....peekee pilake naach... :P.....lol...After hearing the song Karan called up and said that this is how i would be dancing if i got drunk and this song was played...Worth a watch guyz..farhans looknig good and deepika is just being her natural self( i like her as an actress thats the reason iam sayng so)....lol..

Aal Izz Well actually works.....

I was just moving around the office and i got back on my desk with my worried brain. I so badly wanted to get over what i was going through....Why is it so painfull to accept a No.... :(.....I was feeling really upset for geet and saira....saira geet have been thinking of weird stuff to get over thier depression levels....so for a moment staring into my monitor ( which looks like a tv) eeks...(old khatara box.)..gonna get back to my old monitor tomorow. Saw one of my good freinds whose kknowing whats going wid me and around me online and he buzzed me and asked All iz Well??? and i said to my self All iz well.........and ifelt better i was trying to think wat amir khan told in the movie..if you tell ur heart all is going well and bluff to him you will really feel better...and from then on whnever i feel low..i tell myself all iz well...and i feel all my worries are verry lil and i can let go of them easily....so i guess you should try it as well guyz...re bhaiya all iz well.... :)....thanks aamir khan.. :)

Lots of stuff has been happening at my end....last 2 days have been full of happy stuff...got to know a verry good friend...

Started gyming... :( .....i dont like it..but i have to as iam going fat...i see many ppl writing on weight loosing ...( they surely gimme inspiration )..i was just going through harshita and preeti shenoy's blogs and reading there weight loss formulaes...and felt that i dont think its so impossible...

My boss plans to make me permanent now .aaand iam so happy about it....nothing else can make you feel better than getting permanent in ur org and realising that they are actually in need of you... :)

Power went off and i couldnt complete this post...and now i dont remember what i was feeling that day so here i go leaving it incomplete...apologies...I HATE POWER CUTS... :(

humming the song - i know you wan me you know i wantchya by calle ocho... amazing song...try listening to it.. :)

for yemiledu

Iam writing this only for Archana.... this is the first time i ve done this..and it has made me think...was a difficult task..but i enjoyyed doing it...

1. What is your current obsession?
A. Eating (coincidently it is not current one..but has been there for ever)

2. What are you wearing today?
A. UMM t-shirt and Jealous jeans

3. What’s for dinner?
A. some chutney which my sister's nieghbour made with white rice..

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
A. Novels..

5. What are you listening to right now?
A. Sorry by Madonna

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
A. A very nice person who would appreciate what ppl write..

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
A. hmm... Goa or New Zealand or...any where near the beach...

8.One thing you wanna change about yourself ?
A. Get some height and loose some weight

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
A. hmm... New Zealand is what i can think of...

10. Which language do you want to learn?
A. too many...

11. What’s your favourite quote?
A. "sometimes appreciation can help some recognise their strengths"....
be genuine in what you do... there are a list of quotes i like...

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
A. may be my Ma...

13. What is your favourite colour?
A. Black...orange..pink....perl blue....red...white....

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.
A. kajal in the eyes ....smile on my lips....and anything i feel comfortable in...

15. What is your dream job?
A. to own a food joint....and serve healthy good food...

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
A. Cosmopolitan and india today

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
A. i would save it..and add on more money and get a professional camera..

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
A. I dont know..

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
A. i dont know again...

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
A. the one i hav right now

21. What are you going to do after this?
A. go and read the books i have got...

22. What are your favourite movies?
A. other sister...hangover.... i cant remember the others..and ya my latest fav.. 3 idiots//

23. What inspires you?
A. Appreciation and practical ppl

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
A. Neha...

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?
A. coffee...chocolate coffee which we get at convineo

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
A. eat like crazzy and sleep...

27. What makes you go wild?
A. ignorance...and arrogance

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
A. the ones i can relate and all of those who are on my followers list...

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
A. bulls eye....sizzling brownie...fruit cake....garam gulab jamun with ice cream...

30. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
A. 6

31. Favorite Season?
A. spring

32 .would u cook for me?
A. obviously yes

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
A. Not talk to them...or may be spank them...or i would write a letter.. and finish it there and then..

34. What are you afraid of the most?
A. Driving and Dogs ... :(

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
A. i thought nothing..

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?
A. A hug..

37. A word that you say a lot?
A. Are you kidding me....And Hushyari mat maro... n eeeeksss..aand eeeewww... and hmmmmmm....

38.One wish that you really want to see it come true?
A. too many of em....an awesome job in a good branded company and an MBA from the top B- schools....



Rules for those who are tagged:Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.[Break the rules if you want but do Answer all ;~)]Note-Copy and paste this into your notes, delete mine and type in your answers and tag your friends to answer this.And,

I’ll tag : juhi...
ashish..
rohit..
choco lover..
yemiledu
that is it as of now..i dont know many ppl to tag.... lets see what u guys reply..

This is how my new year started

I dont know why new year day is so hyped up just like another festival it comes every year...i never knew ppl needed reasons to celebrate...

My new years night was good.... :).... i chucked my plans with my frend and went back home wore a smart top and jjeans and got comfortable and went to shamshabad Novotel...for the big bang beautifully decorated ONE PARTY....there was good food ...lovely music which was being played by DJ aqeel.....and ofcourse...cute guyz....accompanied with prettty girls...we were four of us....3 girls and 1 guy....and it was fun...i was staring at this guy while dancing....one reason...he was looking cute and the other was that he looked familiar..and i feltt i had seen him....after 10 minutes of brain storming...i spent doing that coz he was in front of me dancing wid his group and i could clearly see him...he also could make out from my face that he knew i was trying to think who he was....after like ten minutes i screamed he is PRAGYAN OJHA....which nobody could here...thanks to the loud music which was being played..he loooked so HAWWTTT.....trust me.... i could not get a picture with him...coz i was feeling awkward....standing right in front of him for like half n hour..and dancing and staring at him..thinking who he was...and then whn i realise who he was..going n asking him for a pic....so weird...eeeeewww... i missed on taking a pic wid himm...

hmm....so we got back arnd 4 in the morning...and slept till 11 in the morning...had to wake up forcefully as we had to go out for lunch to Yoko sizzlers...with my sister and jiju...the place is good...sizzlers are heavy....i couldnt eat it all ...i had to share it with nerdy...we both eat it...but the sizzzling brownie sucked there big time..i hate it whn ppl screw up sizzling brownies... :(

then we went to meet mom....yesterday...things got emotional...i met abhudi...oh gawd...the moment i saw her i had tears in my eyes..ma had made gulab jamun for jiju and k.....myself ...ma and k have one thing in commong we three like garam garam gulab jamuns like crazzy...they taste so yummy...there was another mouth watering dis...Dahi wada...which tasted yummm....ma ka haath ka khana is so heavenly.... then we left at around 10.30 and reached back at hyd by arnd 12... on the way i had a lil not so needed argument in the car with these guyz...i dnt think i should be opening up with ppl much now..coz they fail to understnd me..and i hate it...especially whn it comes to k....i hate it so much....

Today i had the worst lecture from this lady called beena on emotional Intelligence...eeeks what a bad topic to give a lecture on...i heard nothing what the lady said...she was boring and tha content she had to share was even more boring...she dragged it from 7.45 to 11.15...just imagine a long dragged uup boring lecture on emotional intelligence..i dotn want to think abt it....

then i left college and went to city centre....and looked around whole lot of books at crossword....i love that place....i wish i had crossword in my house....and some coffee at coffee day and read a magazine there...and bought 2 books to read for myself....then i went to mc donalds and had a veg burger...which did not taste as bad as it usuallly does...the best part of all this ws...i did it all alone...:)...i dint need any one...after i was done..i saw these 2 guzy in business suits..and i started to dream of me soon becoming a business woman...oh i wish i could soon reach that stage...and be big woman... :)...

got back home and slept..as i had stuffed myself..big time...and after i was awake i realised how badly i wanted to write about how the new year has started off...another big things happneing are..i had a fight wid gabbar....and i dont think i want to talk to him....as it has gone over board this time..i tried and i dont think its gonna work to get bck..so iam not interested in gettting back things to normalisation either...and sarabjit is nt replying to me...i guess i hve made enufff fool of my self ...that shoud be the reason for him not to reply to me...so this is how the day is going...

:)

i love being a pessimist...

Finally iam not going for dinner with sujoy....eeks i hate it... :(....now i dont want to go anywhere...why does it happn every new years night...i end uup doing drastically what i dont want to be doing...huh... :(...
i dont want to start it this way...i think making plans is what we shouldnt be doing....everything should be unexpected coz thats the only way things can make us feel happy and contended...
Atleast in my case it is so...i alwayz expect somthing and something else happens... i think being a pessimist actuallly helps...

Let all the sad things be aside...my boss gave my my stipend (meri pehli kamayi todaY)...bada mazza aaya....iam so happy..it is a good feel iam getting to get some money on my own...wont have to ask mom for one whole damn month for money now... :)
What a new years gift isnt it..


anywayz i cant wrte much coz i wanna rush back home..as i have to carry on with the party..

so catch ya later..and verry happpp new year.. :)

HEy this is one of the poems i really liked...read and like it..
I didn’t get a chance to say I love you.
You were gone before we got that far.All I know is now I really need you,
Yet when I look for you, you aren’t there.
You said once that you never would forget me,Yet how am I to know without you here?
Such emptiness! Like what I feel within me:
Neither flesh nor tears, just cold thin air.
Sometimes, alone, I feel your arms around me,
And all my need for you spills out in pain.
Jagged memories of you surround me.
I cannot think I won’t see you again.

just another ordianary day...

Yeah...it was just another ordianary...day.....i bunked college today...wantedly...got some extra sleep..and went late to office..i reached office like at around 11.00 today... It was bosses lecture i skipped...ha....

Its crazzy how i want to go party tomorow nite...but i guess its not gonna work.. i dont want to comment much on it but i just wish i could....
jiju called up in the morning..hopefully we should go out sometime for lunch or dinners this week..once he gets free with all his work....have loads to tlk to him..regarding carrreeer,shaadi....etc.etc...
dint do anything much in the whole day...proved myself as a confused person to one of my blog followers...who is soon going to plan to quit reading my crazy blog....and i am hopefully going to atleast try to use the tips he has given to make my blog a better one..Thank you so much...
i dint not end up going to raechal's wedding all thanks to commuting problem..and the area in which the wedding is has loads of chaos of telangana and shit like that...so it was safe not to go...but will make sure we give her a nice party once she is bac to college...

My frend called and told me that it was compulsory to attend tomorows guest lecture or else i would be marked absent for the whole damn week....eeeeks..i hate it..i was planning to bunk tomorw as well..but looks like jaana hi padega...i hate waking up early.... :(
sheebu and i had a major fight as usual...and ive decided...dis time iam not going ahead and telling him iam sorry...its been happening for a while now..and i dont see my mistake in it...so i will just sit back and see the tamasha...kitne din baat nahi karega dekhti hun main bhi...
Limitations...boundaries and uncertainities...are such negative words...idont like them,...i wish they never existed... :(

I like the song you and me from pyar impossible...its nice...iam humming it all day long...
:) ....dinner is ready...so catch u later....

for rohit and juhi... :)

Rohit...thanks for reading my blog...feels good that som1 is reading my blog now...i hope you continue reading it ....coz i dont have many ppl reading my blog...so does not make me want to write it.... i hardly have any one reading it ...but in a way writing and letting my heart out feels good coz there are few things i cant talk about to anyone at all...





Juhi....iam uploading a few pics of mine ...check em out and let me know...how iam looking whether the hair cut suits me or not...frendz and boss both of them said it suited me....and i myself like it like crazy ...loads of thanks to chandrakant ( the one who cut my hair ...even though he is not much of a computer person)..i hope u can see me...i could have put up one b4 n after pic but then...iam in office so cant do all this keeda here...

Had a long half n hour talk to my boss cum professor sandeep sir...regarding college...assignments ....work place...new years party..etc. ..etc...he is a goood guy....one of those very few ppl who knows what to say how and at what time.... :).. i think he is great as a bosss...one of the managers...the fun lonving one...( amitesh) is leaving for his hometown for a long holiday...all ppl at office work crazzily i guess except me...but i still want a vacation....i want to go to GOA with frendz.... :(...


Anyways i will get my first pay...(meri pehli kamayi) on this 31st ......and i dont know where to spend what....the stipend is so lil ..that i dont need to think much...out of 4k i wil hide 2k for future use... and i should leave 1k for my montly expenses ...any suggestions what do i do of the other 1k ....your ideas are welcome...will be helpfulll for me to take decisions....
I met nirmala's boy frend sunil....i have met him before but not for so long...that guy is nice...nirmala is a sweet person....i hope all good happns to her.....iam glad i have a frend like her...even though she is 4 years older than me....we share the same level of thinking ...fun..so i was telling u about sunil...he is the guy from her office...and he is not just a guy....he is from ISB...so he is this brainy guy...lol... i want admission in ISB...dilwado na koyi...

:)....I, nirmala and rejina...are going for Raechals wedding which is tomorw..raechal is my PG classmate....Most of my classmates are gonna be there....so it is gonna be real fun ...i will upload some pics for sure...

After reading rohit's blog i realised oh yeah there is something called New Years Resolution as well.....its such a useless thing ...but my first resolution will be....i will Reduce my crazzzily over flowing weight...and work even more harder for my second semester and top this time...aim karne main kya jaata hai.... :)
the time to get back home is comming closer and i need to finish up with my days work....one more hour and iam outta office....
lets see whats in store for me for tomorw.....