Keeping things to Ones Self....

Sometimes it gets so important to keep things to your self....Social networking sites are a wonderful rage in this era where in everyone posts stuff about their near and dear ones.
I just encountered something which if i have done in past will never do again and if i havent done it yet i will never ever do it.....
Posting your feelings is absoultely right...but i think i want to tell the person whom i want to share it with...not the whole world...you never know how might end up hurting or making ppl happy or sad about it..
I hold this very strong feeling...cant get it off....came across something on my friends FB wall....which hurt me....i dont know if it was written in a context where in iam by far even related but it did hurt me..

I think if ppl who read understand what iam trying to say then you will know why i ask you to not do so...

Strange Feeling

Everyone around me seems to be hurrying for the wedding but i dont know why i dont understand the need for the rush..the wedding is still 25 days from today...anywayz....i dont know why i cant understand the need to Rush...
I havent been blogging for long..not for many reasons but just one which is "Iam Lazy"...not that i had many things to do..just that i loving the pace at which my life was moving...
I have been missing mum...trust me when i say i always thought i wouldnt..but this feeling of things not being the same after a month...is making me love her even more....she just doing her best to keep me happy for lifetime.
apart from the feelings that iam going thru as mentioned above iam also going thru this feeling of "like'ism"...i hope there exists a word like that...just happening to like a few ppl...may be i just realised a lil late that they were existing around me and i never realised they were such great ppl..cant believe a person like me who notices so much can unnotice special ppl :P ;P...okay i am just exaggerating....but my friends have been reallly supportive...maybe i just realised that some ppl are worth not forgetting...and they wouldnt even mind if you dont forget them and get on their nerves :P

ANywayz..my lazyness has sunk in me again...so i shall blog back sooonnn

Can i hold on to this moment....

How i wish i could touch the sky...
How i wish...i could run fast and fall into your arms...
How i wish...life was much more easier and their was less struggle in it...
How i wish....i could spend this time with you and tell u how i feell...
How i wish...i could hold on to a few moments and feel them..till iam not wanting to let go of them...

And i can go on like this for so many things...but why is it that when in conversations we tell ppl that we miss those good old times and we wont ever get them back....why cant we just scroll back in time...and stick to that moment for a few more hours...
Touch wood...everything is going fine...and i am happy with the way things are going on .....ive got a reallly loving partner....whom i alwayz wanted....amazing parents...and best of friends...and a job which makes me happy...what else does anyone need..isnt this what we call a perfect life..iam happy...and i want to hold on to it..for somemore time...if not for long...but for a few more hours extra... :) :)...

i cant wait to experience my future..and iam so glad about my past...but i still want to hold on to something which is my present...

yes...i ate allot for dinner and this is the result...
2 good songs you should listen to : Chahoon bhi toh kaise kahun from the movie FORCE and Mausam movie's title song(looking forward to watch the appealing look of shahid kapur ) :)

say it by yourself..

This is going to be surely one of those posts where in iam just letting the emotion out ....the feeelin iam going thru right now...without any thinking iam just writing in....cuz iam reallly low tonight...

Iam scared and worried....i dont know if you love me...cuz you dont say it....
You all must be wondering ....whom am i talking....iam talking about this general human being....who knows he is being superly loved by someone...
I just realised on how much ....i love my mother..even though i never told her...but i do now...irealise all of how much she has done for me....how much pain she has taken for me...just becoz she loves me...and yes i loveher too...but i alwayz complained and behaved cranky..never made he feel it...but today i want her to know that i love her like crazy...i want her to feel the emotion and get happy...
Coz there is nothing else in the world than hearing the person you love so much say a i love you in return...who does not want to be loved....it feels so good and wanted when somone comes and says I love you...

I dontwant to write any further...its just making go depressed...Desperately want someone and everyone to know that....just say it guys....dont ignore it....its just three words but they can compensate alll the emotions are words u want to express forever..

Hard Decisions to make...cuz iam gonna miss it...

Its 2.oo Pm in the afternoon and iam so freakingly worried...the wedding date is still four months away...and i am expected to quit or rather i also want to quit by the end of August..want to spend time with mum and the other members of the family ( this feeling surely comes to any girl be it a single family or a joint family)(i being in a joint family am feeling it quite alot..

Ive worked for this company for almost 18 months now and it has become a part of my life..you usually tend to segregate your life in different parts which are most important periods that you would want to keep as beautifull memories..

My workplace..where i got my first job is certainly a place where i have had beautifull memories...i entered this company when it was just a caterpillar and now its going to soon be a butterfly by this year end....but does my journey end by the end of august????this question is haunting me..irritating me and making me go crazzy...why???bcoz i have no answer for it...

This very moment when i need someone to talk to....i have no body....i cant share it wiht my friends coz they will not get it...they will think that i should start prioritizing things...i cannot share it with any of my other friends who are working coz they wouldnt feel the emotion and would not consider talking to me on something like this...

This is the place where my work is considered ...where iam known for what i do...in the way i do...my department is known by my name in this company...and yes..all thanks to the co-founders and the ppl whom i work with ....make me realise it...Iam fortunate to have worked with such wonderfull ppl...

Every day ppl ask me what have i decided and iam so confused do i have an answer for that question ....NO i dont...can i leave my department this way...when it will need me so much...no i cant...coz i have an attachment...a connect which no one can see and feel..

Iam just hurt cuz iam not able to decide on how to solve this situation....and i badly want someone to listen to me..

i will miss this company and my job when i am not here in hyd... you guyz rock...have been the best colleagues i will ever have....

Regular Post

Theres this song In the movie chalo dilli called Matargashtiyan….freak such an hilarious one but I seem to like it….Osama died…: ) : )….iam glad he did…peace to all those ppl who lost their loved ones all becoz of him…DC lost terribly..iam bored of watching cricket matches..i guess these guyz should be given some break… :P..may be a long summer vacation…but DC should be banned from IPL….god knows why are they even permitted to play….brrrrrr……not liking it…too many movies to catch up…

Life is taking a new turn….

Everyones life goes through this turn…and I consider myself fortunate enough to be taking this turn…even though iam scared ill fall…or may be iam hesitating…whether I will just hurt the people help me go through this path…you just want to make sure this is a safe ride…and you don’t wanna hurt anyone..i can see the speed breakers….and I know I will have to go through them…I just don’t want my bike to breakdown while driving on the speed breakers….it will get very difficult to ride this journey without it being there….

Yes…this is how it is….falling in love…taking a new turn into your regular…unusual zindagi..Iam going through it and it is surely an experience everyone should go through….knowing a person...getting addicted to the calls…getting used to the person..compromising on little things and feeling happy about doing them….and not in turn regretting them….its fun ….trust me this experience is a different kind….the want to sit mum on those late night calls when you run out of topics…not wanting to hang up on those calls…the want to spend maximum of your time thinking and talking about that particular person…yes.. it does happen…wanting to talk about that person to any and every person around you...someone actually starts ruling your mind and also your actions….you want to do all that can benefit the relationship….you want to make the surroundings of that particular person beautifulll and make sure they get to know that you they are really special to you….

This is what iam going through…. Strange but a beautiful feeling…the feeling which I hate to forget about…a person I don’t want to stop thinking about…I don’t know how ppl feelll whether its similar or is it different..But I know that whoever is going through it is just going through a roller coaster ride....:P..

Different ppl ….different natures…different lifestyles…but they want to just forget all those differences and have a happy life together by not living differently but by living with the differences..and accepting this special feeling of love..let it be how tough it can get..you still wanna be hang on…forget everything and give it a fresh start everytime just becoz this particular person starts to become a part of you…a part of everything you do….the song you sing…the food you eat….the movie you see…everything thing…

Dedicate this post to my hero – Fido – you surely are the one whose ruling my mind…Love you…