My Most Awaited Vacation

All thanks to fido i got a chance to visit this place for our mini vacation after our wedding...Kanatal is this place near Dehradun , Mussorie....

We were to stay at the Kanatal Resorts and Spa...i know sounds so grand isnt it...it was....we were scared it wouldn't be as good as they show in pictures...but its exactly the same...there are two routes to visiting kanatal...one is thru Dehradun and the other is thru Rishikesh, Haridwar....While going we travelled by flight to Delhi from pune and then took a Cab to Kanatal and picked the first route which is of Dehradun....Cars make me sleep big time so...priyank was the one who was awake....with the cabby..two things kept him awake...one he was doubtful about the driver and the other was he was scared about the ghat roads...he hadn't been to such an height before....

Was Cute to watch him get tensed...

We reached in the morning and fido and surprised me by booking a Suite..i was really excited to see it cuz..never in my life ever has anyone made me feel so special ....and never ever have i stayed in a Suite before...and i was glad enough to not get disappointed....i rushed in and tugged myself in the bed with cozy blankets where as priyank was busy exploring their services....

The staff was being reallly sweet...they arranged for a candle light dinner...and cooked all what we wanted for breakfast , lunch and dinner......

There peak season for visiting kanatal is during May - June....Make sure you carry all warm clothes while visiting this place....

Tried to upload the pictures but the net connectivity dint support :-(...

Missing you like ive never missed you before

"I MISS YOU"

These lines are being said by me more often these days..i think some understand how iam really feeling and some hardly care...

Ive been missing alot of ppl off late....especially fido...i never thought id miss him so much...feels like iam having a different kind of courtship period..wasnt it a rule that husband and wife should be staying together after they are married...wasnt it made by god...then why are ppl forced to stay apart..i miss his nonsense...i miss his mimicry..i miss to randomly trouble him...i miss to hug him tight and sleep by his side...that fool hardly understands how much i miss him....wish he did....

then i miss my baccha party..the kids of my house...all the random nonsense they gave to me after i got back from work...kids are the best way of distracting urself ....

Missing my poopoo....oh.....i havent spoken to him for long...iam scared id cry to him...and he would understand how much i miss him..i miss to have those sily arguments with him....i miss to talk to him...

missing my mum..and i know she misses me too....shes someone who expresses it of all ppl...i miss you ma....i miss your silly calls...

i miss not only ppl...but i miss doing alot of things...i miss talking...i miss being distracted doing things i like to do...i miss my work...not that iam not liking the way iam right now...but it just that...i am not being constructive...having this kind of an experience is an experience in itself too...

Sometimes ppl and things just make u realise how importnt they are in ur life...

Keeping things to Ones Self....

Sometimes it gets so important to keep things to your self....Social networking sites are a wonderful rage in this era where in everyone posts stuff about their near and dear ones.
I just encountered something which if i have done in past will never do again and if i havent done it yet i will never ever do it.....
Posting your feelings is absoultely right...but i think i want to tell the person whom i want to share it with...not the whole world...you never know how might end up hurting or making ppl happy or sad about it..
I hold this very strong feeling...cant get it off....came across something on my friends FB wall....which hurt me....i dont know if it was written in a context where in iam by far even related but it did hurt me..

I think if ppl who read understand what iam trying to say then you will know why i ask you to not do so...

Strange Feeling

Everyone around me seems to be hurrying for the wedding but i dont know why i dont understand the need for the rush..the wedding is still 25 days from today...anywayz....i dont know why i cant understand the need to Rush...
I havent been blogging for long..not for many reasons but just one which is "Iam Lazy"...not that i had many things to do..just that i loving the pace at which my life was moving...
I have been missing mum...trust me when i say i always thought i wouldnt..but this feeling of things not being the same after a month...is making me love her even more....she just doing her best to keep me happy for lifetime.
apart from the feelings that iam going thru as mentioned above iam also going thru this feeling of "like'ism"...i hope there exists a word like that...just happening to like a few ppl...may be i just realised a lil late that they were existing around me and i never realised they were such great ppl..cant believe a person like me who notices so much can unnotice special ppl :P ;P...okay i am just exaggerating....but my friends have been reallly supportive...maybe i just realised that some ppl are worth not forgetting...and they wouldnt even mind if you dont forget them and get on their nerves :P

ANywayz..my lazyness has sunk in me again...so i shall blog back sooonnn

Can i hold on to this moment....

How i wish i could touch the sky...
How i wish...i could run fast and fall into your arms...
How i wish...life was much more easier and their was less struggle in it...
How i wish....i could spend this time with you and tell u how i feell...
How i wish...i could hold on to a few moments and feel them..till iam not wanting to let go of them...

And i can go on like this for so many things...but why is it that when in conversations we tell ppl that we miss those good old times and we wont ever get them back....why cant we just scroll back in time...and stick to that moment for a few more hours...
Touch wood...everything is going fine...and i am happy with the way things are going on .....ive got a reallly loving partner....whom i alwayz wanted....amazing parents...and best of friends...and a job which makes me happy...what else does anyone need..isnt this what we call a perfect life..iam happy...and i want to hold on to it..for somemore time...if not for long...but for a few more hours extra... :) :)...

i cant wait to experience my future..and iam so glad about my past...but i still want to hold on to something which is my present...

yes...i ate allot for dinner and this is the result...
2 good songs you should listen to : Chahoon bhi toh kaise kahun from the movie FORCE and Mausam movie's title song(looking forward to watch the appealing look of shahid kapur ) :)

say it by yourself..

This is going to be surely one of those posts where in iam just letting the emotion out ....the feeelin iam going thru right now...without any thinking iam just writing in....cuz iam reallly low tonight...

Iam scared and worried....i dont know if you love me...cuz you dont say it....
You all must be wondering ....whom am i talking....iam talking about this general human being....who knows he is being superly loved by someone...
I just realised on how much ....i love my mother..even though i never told her...but i do now...irealise all of how much she has done for me....how much pain she has taken for me...just becoz she loves me...and yes i loveher too...but i alwayz complained and behaved cranky..never made he feel it...but today i want her to know that i love her like crazy...i want her to feel the emotion and get happy...
Coz there is nothing else in the world than hearing the person you love so much say a i love you in return...who does not want to be loved....it feels so good and wanted when somone comes and says I love you...

I dontwant to write any further...its just making go depressed...Desperately want someone and everyone to know that....just say it guys....dont ignore it....its just three words but they can compensate alll the emotions are words u want to express forever..

Hard Decisions to make...cuz iam gonna miss it...

Its 2.oo Pm in the afternoon and iam so freakingly worried...the wedding date is still four months away...and i am expected to quit or rather i also want to quit by the end of August..want to spend time with mum and the other members of the family ( this feeling surely comes to any girl be it a single family or a joint family)(i being in a joint family am feeling it quite alot..

Ive worked for this company for almost 18 months now and it has become a part of my life..you usually tend to segregate your life in different parts which are most important periods that you would want to keep as beautifull memories..

My workplace..where i got my first job is certainly a place where i have had beautifull memories...i entered this company when it was just a caterpillar and now its going to soon be a butterfly by this year end....but does my journey end by the end of august????this question is haunting me..irritating me and making me go crazzy...why???bcoz i have no answer for it...

This very moment when i need someone to talk to....i have no body....i cant share it wiht my friends coz they will not get it...they will think that i should start prioritizing things...i cannot share it with any of my other friends who are working coz they wouldnt feel the emotion and would not consider talking to me on something like this...

This is the place where my work is considered ...where iam known for what i do...in the way i do...my department is known by my name in this company...and yes..all thanks to the co-founders and the ppl whom i work with ....make me realise it...Iam fortunate to have worked with such wonderfull ppl...

Every day ppl ask me what have i decided and iam so confused do i have an answer for that question ....NO i dont...can i leave my department this way...when it will need me so much...no i cant...coz i have an attachment...a connect which no one can see and feel..

Iam just hurt cuz iam not able to decide on how to solve this situation....and i badly want someone to listen to me..

i will miss this company and my job when i am not here in hyd... you guyz rock...have been the best colleagues i will ever have....