My Most Awaited Vacation

All thanks to fido i got a chance to visit this place for our mini vacation after our wedding...Kanatal is this place near Dehradun , Mussorie....

We were to stay at the Kanatal Resorts and Spa...i know sounds so grand isnt it...it was....we were scared it wouldn't be as good as they show in pictures...but its exactly the same...there are two routes to visiting kanatal...one is thru Dehradun and the other is thru Rishikesh, Haridwar....While going we travelled by flight to Delhi from pune and then took a Cab to Kanatal and picked the first route which is of Dehradun....Cars make me sleep big time so...priyank was the one who was awake....with the cabby..two things kept him awake...one he was doubtful about the driver and the other was he was scared about the ghat roads...he hadn't been to such an height before....

Was Cute to watch him get tensed...

We reached in the morning and fido and surprised me by booking a Suite..i was really excited to see it cuz..never in my life ever has anyone made me feel so special ....and never ever have i stayed in a Suite before...and i was glad enough to not get disappointed....i rushed in and tugged myself in the bed with cozy blankets where as priyank was busy exploring their services....

The staff was being reallly sweet...they arranged for a candle light dinner...and cooked all what we wanted for breakfast , lunch and dinner......

There peak season for visiting kanatal is during May - June....Make sure you carry all warm clothes while visiting this place....

Tried to upload the pictures but the net connectivity dint support :-(...

Missing you like ive never missed you before

"I MISS YOU"

These lines are being said by me more often these days..i think some understand how iam really feeling and some hardly care...

Ive been missing alot of ppl off late....especially fido...i never thought id miss him so much...feels like iam having a different kind of courtship period..wasnt it a rule that husband and wife should be staying together after they are married...wasnt it made by god...then why are ppl forced to stay apart..i miss his nonsense...i miss his mimicry..i miss to randomly trouble him...i miss to hug him tight and sleep by his side...that fool hardly understands how much i miss him....wish he did....

then i miss my baccha party..the kids of my house...all the random nonsense they gave to me after i got back from work...kids are the best way of distracting urself ....

Missing my poopoo....oh.....i havent spoken to him for long...iam scared id cry to him...and he would understand how much i miss him..i miss to have those sily arguments with him....i miss to talk to him...

missing my mum..and i know she misses me too....shes someone who expresses it of all ppl...i miss you ma....i miss your silly calls...

i miss not only ppl...but i miss doing alot of things...i miss talking...i miss being distracted doing things i like to do...i miss my work...not that iam not liking the way iam right now...but it just that...i am not being constructive...having this kind of an experience is an experience in itself too...

Sometimes ppl and things just make u realise how importnt they are in ur life...

Keeping things to Ones Self....

Sometimes it gets so important to keep things to your self....Social networking sites are a wonderful rage in this era where in everyone posts stuff about their near and dear ones.
I just encountered something which if i have done in past will never do again and if i havent done it yet i will never ever do it.....
Posting your feelings is absoultely right...but i think i want to tell the person whom i want to share it with...not the whole world...you never know how might end up hurting or making ppl happy or sad about it..
I hold this very strong feeling...cant get it off....came across something on my friends FB wall....which hurt me....i dont know if it was written in a context where in iam by far even related but it did hurt me..

I think if ppl who read understand what iam trying to say then you will know why i ask you to not do so...

Strange Feeling

Everyone around me seems to be hurrying for the wedding but i dont know why i dont understand the need for the rush..the wedding is still 25 days from today...anywayz....i dont know why i cant understand the need to Rush...
I havent been blogging for long..not for many reasons but just one which is "Iam Lazy"...not that i had many things to do..just that i loving the pace at which my life was moving...
I have been missing mum...trust me when i say i always thought i wouldnt..but this feeling of things not being the same after a month...is making me love her even more....she just doing her best to keep me happy for lifetime.
apart from the feelings that iam going thru as mentioned above iam also going thru this feeling of "like'ism"...i hope there exists a word like that...just happening to like a few ppl...may be i just realised a lil late that they were existing around me and i never realised they were such great ppl..cant believe a person like me who notices so much can unnotice special ppl :P ;P...okay i am just exaggerating....but my friends have been reallly supportive...maybe i just realised that some ppl are worth not forgetting...and they wouldnt even mind if you dont forget them and get on their nerves :P

ANywayz..my lazyness has sunk in me again...so i shall blog back sooonnn

Can i hold on to this moment....

How i wish i could touch the sky...
How i wish...i could run fast and fall into your arms...
How i wish...life was much more easier and their was less struggle in it...
How i wish....i could spend this time with you and tell u how i feell...
How i wish...i could hold on to a few moments and feel them..till iam not wanting to let go of them...

And i can go on like this for so many things...but why is it that when in conversations we tell ppl that we miss those good old times and we wont ever get them back....why cant we just scroll back in time...and stick to that moment for a few more hours...
Touch wood...everything is going fine...and i am happy with the way things are going on .....ive got a reallly loving partner....whom i alwayz wanted....amazing parents...and best of friends...and a job which makes me happy...what else does anyone need..isnt this what we call a perfect life..iam happy...and i want to hold on to it..for somemore time...if not for long...but for a few more hours extra... :) :)...

i cant wait to experience my future..and iam so glad about my past...but i still want to hold on to something which is my present...

yes...i ate allot for dinner and this is the result...
2 good songs you should listen to : Chahoon bhi toh kaise kahun from the movie FORCE and Mausam movie's title song(looking forward to watch the appealing look of shahid kapur ) :)

say it by yourself..

This is going to be surely one of those posts where in iam just letting the emotion out ....the feeelin iam going thru right now...without any thinking iam just writing in....cuz iam reallly low tonight...

Iam scared and worried....i dont know if you love me...cuz you dont say it....
You all must be wondering ....whom am i talking....iam talking about this general human being....who knows he is being superly loved by someone...
I just realised on how much ....i love my mother..even though i never told her...but i do now...irealise all of how much she has done for me....how much pain she has taken for me...just becoz she loves me...and yes i loveher too...but i alwayz complained and behaved cranky..never made he feel it...but today i want her to know that i love her like crazy...i want her to feel the emotion and get happy...
Coz there is nothing else in the world than hearing the person you love so much say a i love you in return...who does not want to be loved....it feels so good and wanted when somone comes and says I love you...

I dontwant to write any further...its just making go depressed...Desperately want someone and everyone to know that....just say it guys....dont ignore it....its just three words but they can compensate alll the emotions are words u want to express forever..

Hard Decisions to make...cuz iam gonna miss it...

Its 2.oo Pm in the afternoon and iam so freakingly worried...the wedding date is still four months away...and i am expected to quit or rather i also want to quit by the end of August..want to spend time with mum and the other members of the family ( this feeling surely comes to any girl be it a single family or a joint family)(i being in a joint family am feeling it quite alot..

Ive worked for this company for almost 18 months now and it has become a part of my life..you usually tend to segregate your life in different parts which are most important periods that you would want to keep as beautifull memories..

My workplace..where i got my first job is certainly a place where i have had beautifull memories...i entered this company when it was just a caterpillar and now its going to soon be a butterfly by this year end....but does my journey end by the end of august????this question is haunting me..irritating me and making me go crazzy...why???bcoz i have no answer for it...

This very moment when i need someone to talk to....i have no body....i cant share it wiht my friends coz they will not get it...they will think that i should start prioritizing things...i cannot share it with any of my other friends who are working coz they wouldnt feel the emotion and would not consider talking to me on something like this...

This is the place where my work is considered ...where iam known for what i do...in the way i do...my department is known by my name in this company...and yes..all thanks to the co-founders and the ppl whom i work with ....make me realise it...Iam fortunate to have worked with such wonderfull ppl...

Every day ppl ask me what have i decided and iam so confused do i have an answer for that question ....NO i dont...can i leave my department this way...when it will need me so much...no i cant...coz i have an attachment...a connect which no one can see and feel..

Iam just hurt cuz iam not able to decide on how to solve this situation....and i badly want someone to listen to me..

i will miss this company and my job when i am not here in hyd... you guyz rock...have been the best colleagues i will ever have....

Regular Post

Theres this song In the movie chalo dilli called Matargashtiyan….freak such an hilarious one but I seem to like it….Osama died…: ) : )….iam glad he did…peace to all those ppl who lost their loved ones all becoz of him…DC lost terribly..iam bored of watching cricket matches..i guess these guyz should be given some break… :P..may be a long summer vacation…but DC should be banned from IPL….god knows why are they even permitted to play….brrrrrr……not liking it…too many movies to catch up…

Life is taking a new turn….

Everyones life goes through this turn…and I consider myself fortunate enough to be taking this turn…even though iam scared ill fall…or may be iam hesitating…whether I will just hurt the people help me go through this path…you just want to make sure this is a safe ride…and you don’t wanna hurt anyone..i can see the speed breakers….and I know I will have to go through them…I just don’t want my bike to breakdown while driving on the speed breakers….it will get very difficult to ride this journey without it being there….

Yes…this is how it is….falling in love…taking a new turn into your regular…unusual zindagi..Iam going through it and it is surely an experience everyone should go through….knowing a person...getting addicted to the calls…getting used to the person..compromising on little things and feeling happy about doing them….and not in turn regretting them….its fun ….trust me this experience is a different kind….the want to sit mum on those late night calls when you run out of topics…not wanting to hang up on those calls…the want to spend maximum of your time thinking and talking about that particular person…yes.. it does happen…wanting to talk about that person to any and every person around you...someone actually starts ruling your mind and also your actions….you want to do all that can benefit the relationship….you want to make the surroundings of that particular person beautifulll and make sure they get to know that you they are really special to you….

This is what iam going through…. Strange but a beautiful feeling…the feeling which I hate to forget about…a person I don’t want to stop thinking about…I don’t know how ppl feelll whether its similar or is it different..But I know that whoever is going through it is just going through a roller coaster ride....:P..

Different ppl ….different natures…different lifestyles…but they want to just forget all those differences and have a happy life together by not living differently but by living with the differences..and accepting this special feeling of love..let it be how tough it can get..you still wanna be hang on…forget everything and give it a fresh start everytime just becoz this particular person starts to become a part of you…a part of everything you do….the song you sing…the food you eat….the movie you see…everything thing…

Dedicate this post to my hero – Fido – you surely are the one whose ruling my mind…Love you…

:-( :-(

very many reasons why am i low..
a. My eye is down with an infection....its gone red... and it keeps watering for no freaking reason..
b. i want some one to pamper me..Iam missing mom...mothers are sisters are always so concerned..
c.ppl around me are unhappy which makes me unhapppy..
d. 2 months is a long time...its high time someone realises that - it calls for a meet
e. ive started thinking too much :(


:( :( :(.....iam missing my mom...moms are so nice...they just care no matter how bad a child you are..

love you granpa

I had alwayz wanted to write a post on himm...and iam finally doing it...iam writing coz i want to tell him how much i love him....

Its been almost Sixteen years now that i have been staying with him....trust me he is such a sweet father,friend, brother,mother, and above all the coolest grandfather i have ever had...i have alwayz wanted to grab some good qualities from a few ppl...andhe comes first in the few peoples category .....i have seen him be the best father-in-law....the most romantic husband....a loving granpa...and above all a good human being...

At times trust me i have not liked him...he hasnt given me things which i reallly wanted in my life....and never gave me reasons for not giving them to me...but now when only few months are left before i leave this house and him...i want to forget it alll......and wnt to make the best use of time i can with him

Today, i had a very heart to heart conversation with him....wee usually talk to eachother abt our personal lifes...i have told him everything and he tells me all about what is happening with him and around him....and after i grew big..he also has started taking advices from me..

It had been quite sometime that i was not able to spend some quality time with him....today when i was not at office...chilling out at home...with my phone not ringing...not playng with the kids....and thankfullly no one at home just him and me....he called me and asked "kya chal raha hai".....-i know sounds like a reallly kewl granpa....that he is trust me...

Then we sat to talk...he asked me about office...he asked me about fido...he asked me about my wedding...and also asked me about allot more other things.. :P....and at the same time he told me about how he felt about all of it.....he gave his take on each n everything...it felt good...reallly good to hear him talk to me after sooooo long...then i asked him...."and whats going on at ur end".....he started of....he spoke about last few days....and the coming few days...he told me a few things which i was not needing to know about...but he still shared them with me...i felt like he wanted to talk to somebody and he spoke to me....sometimes you feeelll so good about being there for someone...especially whn someone has been there all the time for you..you just feel wonderful....he spoke...he wanted advice...i gave...loved it...trust me i loved it...for the first time he was sharing things without me forcing him to do so....

I had to leave the chat unended with him coz i had my friends atthe door step...waiting for me...and had to rush...i dint want to go out for the first time...jst wanted to sit and hear him...some qualities of his are just worth learning...

I just wanna tell him that he has been a great father and a too good grandfather... i love him lots..irrespective of few of my wants not being fulfilled....i love you poo poo...and trust me i would miss you the most after leaving this house....sorrryy fido....if my poo poo was young and was not related to me...i would surely get married to him...

I love you poo poo...even though your just sitting a few steps away from me...iam missing you....

The want to go for a HOLIDAY

Holiday ...i want to go for a holiday...
I cant believe it has just been 3 months that i had gone for a 15 day vacation and i want to go for it again....yes a mini one would but it has to happen...i dont wanna be home...want to visit some nice place..and not think of hyd and home and office...and about all the daily chores...just want to go on a vacation and do nothing...nothing at all..just pamper myself...

OK now i know where is it comming from... Someone please pamper me...

My crave for Pani Puri...

I just realised that i was feeling reallly weak today and dint want to eat anything at all....iam living on 2 sandwiches ....and i am surely screwing my health up....

I also realised that it had beeennn REEEEEAAAALLLLYYY long..and i hadnt eaen pani Puri at my favourite bandi....freak i cnt wait to get back home....and get the puri in my mouth....

I still havent disclosed to Fido that i end up talking more than i regualarly do after eating pani puri...ha...i dont know how he is going to react to that change...

I think pani puri is something...i can have anytime of the day / night...i dont need a particular time for it....its such a tempting dish and also a releaving one... :) :)

Ok i cant wait any longer....iam leaving from work now and heading to eat pani puri :) :)...Oh!! pani puri u make me so happpy...

Wish Fido was around to share :)

Cant think of a title...

Yeah...i just cant think of a title for this post coz nothings comming on my mind right now..Iam not writing this blog with a topic in my mind but yes...i just felt like writing...may be by the end of the blog ill get to know what i reallly wanted to write about...

Iam at work....have loads to finish....but i cant think of even one to name....and yeah...there i have another msg on my fone...nope its not priyank...he hardly mesgs on my phone....its the airtel guyz....god they are getting on my nerves...they messg me more of often than fido does....I should complain to fido...or may be i should go marry airtel....:P...they atleast message me....Fido...doesnt :( :(....not even a "love you" even after having a long day without talking to him :( :(...no iam not complaining.... :P...i know he is busy...

anywayz....my right leg seems to be hurting today.....Hersh's girl friend anuja has come over to hyd...will be meeting her up tomorw....shes another talkative nautanki just like me...so its fun to meet her...went to lifestyle last night while returning from office....i just had to pick a pack of rubberbands as i was running out of them....and i ended up buying so many more accessories and shelled out 500 Rs... :(.....i am so hopeless....ive decided to not do any unwanted shopping...
I dont know how much i would succeed on doing so...
Sent fido a surprise cant leak it out here what if he reads the blog... :P...I forgot to take pictures of what i did...its ok..ill ask him to do so and put em up.....
Anywayz before someone peeps into my system...i should stop writing... :) :)

and iam fine.... :) :)

Phew !!!

SOmetimes Internet connections and their connectivity with the sites can get so irrritatiing...and when nothing else around is working your way....its just an add on to the irritation levels...

Yes i want to do Phew!!! again and again....iam so frustrated of using my phone...i feel iam doing some Atyachar on it...I recommend you never to buy Samsung Corby....It surely looks like a good deal to buy....but it is not an everlasting phone....All thanks to my Dhokebaaz Corby i am using another phone which is some age old model of Nokia...Cant help....majburi ka naaam mahatma gandhi....but yes....It is far more better than the corby...:P....Its not idont like the nokia phone which i am using..its just gone old..and in oldage am asking it work with the stamina of a 20yr old youngster....So i hope you know what can e expected out of the Phone....i dont blame it..

I need to buy a new phone (no touchScreen)any suggestions...

Fido dint call me last night....another set of Phew Phew Phew!!!...:(...I guess i just have to accept it....its still march and december looks to long to go....such days are just going to come more often... :(.....i need to just get to used to it...

I dont think Fido will have the time to go thru the blog...so i can write anything and everything....

The folllowing pic is so for fido....so much like himm...


Oh...ginger(refering to my blog)...you surely are good subsitute for Fido...where i can just write write write...and you will just take take take... :P..

Anywayz too early in the morning...that iam writing this blog...so lemme go back and take a shower and rush to ophice... :P..

Craving for some bavarian Chocolate.....of baskins ...

Those 3 words…

Yep..now it’s a routine that fido and I take time out and talk to eachother in the night. Last night was our longest conversation till date and it was all going on like it does every day. All thanks to the effect of the movie If Only on me that I should do or say what all I want to the people and not keep it myself as you never know what happens to you next.

Deep down somewhere I knew that fido would be taking his own sweet time..but I thought I wanted to tell him…that yes…I know you’re the one I love…..Yes it has never been a tradition that the girls says it first…but fido dint look like he would do so…even though he always wrote in his messages…I knew he wouldn’t say it…I tried to do it on the phone verbally and it was sso soo soo difficult you wont believe…so I had to ask him to hang and text him the same…freak..i know iam such a looser….bt I was feeling shy…(being shy is so not neha) :P….

He then pretended to have not read the message and somehow made me say it…(he surely can get things out of my mouth :P) I like it….After I said those three words “ I love you” …I was blushing…like a red tomato..and then he replied saying the same…that he loved me too…and yes….it was so very special….when you know someone loves and is saying that you….you want to hear it more….just want him to make you feel so special just like no one else does….and Fido was doing it…those 3 words from his mouth made me smile, blush, go crazy, laugh…want to hug him and do what not…but it surely felt like never before…nothing can beat this feeling….its the best feeling to have..to know that someone loves you so much that you can sense it when he says it even after being so apart…

Iam just so happy and feel so good to have him...gawd knows where is he..hasnt called yet…iam missing him…

Toasty and Fido....

Have stopped blogging regularly so think i should start doing so again...A few updates from side so that you dont get lost on where iam whn u read my next blog...
The latest and the best news till date..

1. Priyank(fido) and i(toasty) have got officially committed....:P....loving it...OH yeah ...we werent sharing these feelings for eachother while we werre just chatting with no intentions of getting serious wit eachother....one month back...but february changed it all...we met...we understood...we liked and we said yes.... :) :) :).....Iam so looking forward to knowing him more....a very genuine sweetheart that he is...and me the biggest nautanki on earth.....We are different but we are very similar at the same time...another addition in my list of ppl for whom i want to pray....I know its to early to say this but somehow iam so glad its fido and no one else for me....

this weekend i sent him chocolates and letters and a wrist watch (which iam hoping he wears)...i know iam dumb to send him a watch even after knowing that he does not wear it...but i couldnt help.. i loved it for him.....i hope he wears it....this whole gift making thing and all happened allot in hurry...but i was able to make him something reallly nice and send it across...I hope he will be able to remember this for the rest of his life...

Things change so easily...one fine day (25th Feb night)we both said yes and now all i think of is him...A few things in which fido is very different from others....he does not open up very easily, portrays his feelings 4 me very rarely but he surely has them so no worries....:P...

I just want to be with him now and then ...want to know him so badly...this period is something where iam so loving it...i want to know what he feels abt me....all that is in his head and heart...
Fido i miss you so much....i wish you could know it...and i could tell it to you... :)

2nd Update : ive been feeling reallly sleepy at work these days....guess its the affect of the BIG YES :P....but i love to talk to him in the night....wish it could go on and never end..

3rd Update : Saira and Paul are getting engaged in April....yes yes i dint want it to happen but its happening...iam happpy for them...coz they are happy for eachother..

was talking to my colleague about how we hit it off...so filmy u shall know about it soon....may be i and fido can write a post together for you guyz...

let me tell u my status...

Finallly iam blogging after a really long time....THanks Roheeet and Varun...for reminding me that i hadnt blogged for long and yes now i have a new follower..someone call Koolgal...Ha...Feels good to know that ppl wait for me to blog and ppl who are new to my blog like my blog...(even though just a few)...

Blogging is not about making ppl like what you write...its more about telling ppl abt whats happening and may be somehow they can relate to it and feel good that its just not them who are going through the random feelings but yes there are ppl like them too..


Ok...my current status of life....is so complicated...iam feeling so weird...a few things are going up and down and agian up and down....but a few things are just going donw down down.... :( :( :(

I know i cant expect things to go my way all the time...but then i can be spared once isnt it....I just got back a month ago from this 15 day long trip in dec...and it was a gr8 one...i love being with family...they make me feel good...
I got back and then....had to join work...and since then ive been working again....gawd how i wish i could bunk work just like college...

went thru some bad experiences of making new friends this Jan...My suggestion...never make new friends and even if u do....do not open up easily to themm...some ppl are just mean and talk to you with an intention and a purpose in mind..
SUch pppllll suck big time and they hurt u like crazy... :(

Anyways...i am trying to get rid of those ppl at present and get back to my normal self...

Its my brithday on this tuesday...and i was fine till today...but now i dont feeel the ssame excitment i had till afternoon..i dunno what went wrong...

I somehow know its not going to be a great one as it is every year... :(...my sisters not in india to celebrate my birthday...and she would just send me something or may be do smthn for me...but i shes too far away to do smthn..
I have no hopes from my friends...poor ppl...my office is too far for them to give me any surprises...and my fmaily is just too hopeless whn it comes to birthdays....

anywayz....enufff of depression...i made myself happy by getting myself a birthday gift...i got a nice branded watch....which i wanted for a long time...damn..ilike it...will be one of my priced possesions :) :)

ANywayz...too much for today...